Cat scan complete. The appointment scheduled last week to scan my brain was rescheduled to yesterday. I was dreading the test because I am a little claustrophobic. I have been doing some relaxation techniques and they really helped. Plus the machine was much more open than ones I have been in before when they did scans of my spine. Still I am glad that is over. Now it’s just waiting for the results.
Sunshine. We had a lot of blue sky and sunshine today. I’m not saying we didn’t get rain, we did, but there were long periods where it was really pretty out. A nice day all in all.
Learning to work through frustration and not give up. I am really struggling with the still life we are working on in my painting class. If you draw one thing in the wrong place or at the wrong angle in your underpainting, when you start to build the details it can get very confusing. I was getting lost in the shadows and highlights. There were two pieces that were out of place, just slightly off in the forefront and one on the left side that caused chaos and frustration every time I tried to work on the folds in the cloth.
I did get very frustrated, but instead of giving up I went outside and walked around a few minutes then went back and talked with my professor. He helped me uncover what exactly was causing my major problem. I basically had to paint over about half of the painting with the background fabric color and start over.
This painting is to be critiqued in class on Tuesday which means I will be going to the studio during lab hours over the weekend to get it finished. When talking with my professor he said “remember it’s only a painting” and I commented “and I’m not even doing this for a grade.” He laughed and said its just your personality. He knows I always want to do well. I am a perfectionist and expect way too much of myself sometimes. I really do need to learn not to take things so seriously. Wish me luck making something presentable out of the mess I have made.
Father, thank you for the beautiful blue sky with puffy white clouds that I saw when I first went out today. It really was beautiful. I am praying that the cat scan tells the doctors what is wrong so they know what to do to stop the headaches.
I especially want to thank you for helping me to work through my frustration so quickly today and helping me to jump right back into working on the painting. We both know in the past I would have more likely just stopped trying and said I couldn’t do it. I felt those negative thoughts coming into play today. Please help me remember that the negative does not come from you but from the enemy.
I love you and all the wonderful work you are doing in me. Who knew an oil painting class could be one of your tools.